People Aren't Always Who They Say They Are

The universe...it's filed with millions of people.Different races ,different personalities but along with all of this people tend to have this perception that they have to show and pretend to be something that they not to the rest of the world,this can be misleading at times as people believe that this is how a certain person is,and eventually fall for someone who isn't who they are believed to be.

But on the same note you get those people who are who they really say they are and when this happens our instant reaction is to question this matter and ask if this is really who they say that they are as it seems to good to be true? Matter of the fact that these people really do exsist it's just difficult to distinguish these "REAL" people from the "FAKE" people and who it is to really invest your trust in .

Iv come across both these types of people in life and in my personal experience I think this is a good thing as it teaches us to keep our guard up and appreciate those that are cloest to us and it's a life lesson that one learns very quick.We learn to appreciate what we have instad of obssesing over the things we"ve lost and value everyone that is honest and true to us.

A prime example of what i've just said above is that of the precious girl in my previous post Lara Johnstone.Before I had ever met her I was forever obsessing over everyone I had lost and then she came a long and it's as if she just healed every wound that I had,and made me realise that it's people like herself that I should be surrounding myself with she is honestly someone who is to good to be true except the only difference is I know that she is who she is,because she doesn't prove it with words but rather by her actions,Everyday im thankful for her because she makes up for so much of who I am today,made me realise that life is worth living for when you have someone to fight for and I don't know about you that's more than a reason to never give up and well my reasn is Lara Johnstone

LIFE LESSON LEARNT-"NEVER GIVE UP WHEN YOU HAVE SOMEONE WHO IS ALWAYS WORTH THE FIGHT"

Lara Johnstone Like A Sister To Me

Lara Johnstone A blessing In My Life

 

 

Lara Johnstone what more is there to say about this girl.She is one in mllion has the kindest of hearts that you'll ever see in your whole entire lifetime .She gives more than any other human being I know,always puts everyone else first before herself ,strong willed,caring,loving,amazing,and really theres no words to describe just how much I LOVE her,and how I'll go the ends of the Earth for her.

 

 

         The Beautiful Blessing in My Life and definately one im not EVER prepared to Loose.
                                                                      My LaraJay.



How we met was actualy quite Ironic to the both of us I still remember it as if it was yesterday. It was one Wednesday evening around 19:00pm and I had been coughing for a little while and it was begining to worsen so mum had decided to take to me to the nearest Hospital which happened to be the Linmed.Walking in feeling sick as ever and taking a seat in the waiting room waiting for a doctor to examine me.The next thing I recall one of the nurses coming out of the Trauma unit and calling for Miss Fernandes.So in I walked and I remember seeing all the units occupied and I got one of the very Last ones and as I WAS about to enter I saw a familiar face that I swore I had seen before I just couldn'tput my finger on it.

 

As the doctor came and did his examination I remembered where I had seen that face and then it hit me,SCHOOL. I remember mum saying shame that poor girl has measels ,and then I realised that it was Lara Johnstone.I decided to go on Facebook and message her to just justify if it was her that I Saw,to my surprise it was.The Doctor came back and told me that I had Double Pnuemonia and that I nEEDED TO BE ADMITTED for a few short days.

 

I was then transported to Arwyp Hospital which is situated in Kempton Park as Linmed was all booked and full.Over the next few days In hospital I spent TIME talking to La on facebook and eventually that progressed and before we both knew it we were both back at school and began speaking there to.

 

It was then really Interhouse where we began to actually develop our relationship,I was laying on the grass under a Marquee with a few friends and that Johnstone kid came and sat down next to me,before I could blink all her friends had just joined in and I felt a little awkward as I didn't knowany of them,so instead I just sat there not saying anything until someone had tried to stand on my back yes stand on my back,and La to my rescue said "Don't stand on her she had a back operation " and that immediately raised an alarm to everyone who was sitting around,so I gave the explanation of what was wrong and why I had a back operation at such a young age.

 

as the years have passed by La and I have grown closer and I can't even begin to picture what my life without her would be like,it is unimaginable.I'v told her things that I wouldn't dare tell anyone else and yet she isn't really the judgemental type which just makes her more beutiful then what she already is.Through every thick and thin shes been there for me,givin me a helping hand when no one else did and encouraged me to fight back when I said I wasnt able to,she's become more than just some aquiantance that I had accidentally met in The Linmed,more than just a friend but rather as family and A sister,and all I can say is that im more than thankful to have recieved the opportunity to have met someone who is so special and has such a huge impact on my life.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 



Family Affairs

So today I decided to create my 2nd Blog.Except the only difference with this one is that it's going to be more personal.

 

I Was Supposed To Be Daddy's Little Girl together but he never wanted me ,it's what I felt like telling mum but I alreadIt's 17 years later and this phrase no longer exsists in my vocabulary.I no longer get excited when I hear mum say "Dad's on his way home " but instead I have all this anger and fustration build up inside me,and you may question thee above and well reason being is that when you grow up with both parents mum being the one to always be there and well dad he was there too ,but never emotinally or physically was almost as if he was ghost.There were the times that we used to do things y knew what her reaction to that statement would be so instead I bottled everythng inside and it has taken me 17 years to fianlly expose how it is that I really feel but writting this blog.

It wasn't to Long ago that my family had discovered that my "dad" was having an affair.Still being in High School I recall going to school with bloodshot eyes,feeling more depressed than ever.Deciding to talk to a girl who im very close with by the name of Dominique Pascarella I began to tell her what was going on.If you knew this girl you'd  know that firstly theres no one in this world that can come close to her she's really just beautiful inside and out . You'd understand my reasoning of asking her for advice, if you wanted things to be put in perspective with a honest opinion and wanted to know that you wouldn't be judged she was definately the one to go to,so thats what I did.

<---------Dominique

YES,this is her told you she's beautiful never a dull moment with her as you can see  =)

 

                      And here is what I look like

Just about everyday I spoke to her and not once did she ever give up on me.School days progressed to become tougher and I could no longer keep up.EventuallY before I knew it,it had almost reached the end of the year ,I still remember the day I was sitting in class with my earphones in my ears trying to block out the rest of the world and from anymore negative thoughts filtering into my head.The intercome rang and a announcement was made for Claudia Fernandes to come up to the office with her bags,so I did as I was told slinging my bag over one shoulder and feeling eyes on the back of my head I knew everyone was saying negative thoughts about me,making my way to the office trying to hold my tears back I remember waling right past her and another girl who were on their way to extra classes as they were writting finals at the time,continuing my walk I heard a familiar voice shouting "Clauds,hold on" as I turned around I saw Dominique rushing to my Aid and asking what was happening I had to go so I said I would speak to her later . 

When I had reached the office I was surprised to see Both my parents standing outside with the principle at that moment I knew that I had bad news coming my way and yes I was right taking a seat in the confrence room ,hearing the principle tell me I had pretty much failed the year due to being absent so many days which was associated with my health and being in hospital so often that I wouldnt pass the following year as I had then missed out on to much school work ,dad not being interested his words exactly was "DO what you have to ,I have to get back to work"got up and then left.The decision was made that I had to stay back a year and repeat my grade 9 year again.

Dealing with my parents constantly fighting and the stress of school,and then on top of that school had told my parents that I was using substances,which at the time they couldn't prove until i got home my Parents were given a drug kit to test me and it had come out positive and yes il admit I turned to drugs because I honestly felt as if I had nothing else to turn to so instead I reverted to drugs,THINKING hey maybe dad will realise that his the problem andstop what his doing and realize that his in the wrong ,but unfortunately my attempt had failed misserably and the only one to be there for me was Dominique.Helping me through my struggle one which I thought I was never bound to get past or overcome this girl managed and achieved HOW?I have no idea but im thankful for her everyday because if it werent for her ,today I wouldn't be here writting this so if you reading this and are going through a similar struggle just know that there is a light at the end of the tunnel even if you may think that there isn't.

LIFE LESSON LEARNT-"No matter how difficult times get there is someone out there that does care for you even if you think thst there isn't.Don't be afraid to ask for help if you feel that you are losing yourself"