Why Is It So hard To Find Someone WHO CARES ABOUT YOU?
Has that thought ever crossed your mind? Or have you just never given it much thought at all?
I was sitting listening to Music by Three days Grace and in one of their songs thats what the lead singer transposes across to his listeners and I just sat there and realized this song has been on my iPod forever and a day and it'sprobably played so many times but I never gave the lyrics much of a listen until a few minutes,I thought wow this song is so true in one of the versus he says :
"Why is it so hard to find someone who cares about you but its easy enough for someone to look down on you"
I thought thats so true and it came to me that as you may be reading this and your world may be dissasembled or dessasembling you just have to keep your head up ,you may feel betrayed but you can escape the bitter taste of what life is throwing at you ,you can break away from everything and take yourself to higher places,you the only one who can change your fate be the change you want to see in the world.
I always thought I could live life with holding things inside and although I know it's not good,It's just how I deal with things it feels as if I'm frozen inside and I realized that I live in a world so cold,im living in a shell with no soul I feel like im wasting away im left behind I feel like im losing my mind,I used to say to people that I was nothing without them and while this is true there is people I have encountered through out my life that Have helped me acomplish things that have made me the person I am today,the rises and falls I have experienced have played a big part in who I am too,I just keep reminding myself and you should too if you going through a dificult time that you have to make things work with what you have there's people out there who are happier with much less than what you have.I know you may feel like all you want is a little of the goodlife and YOU HAVE TO MAKE THAT HAPPEN!
STAND UP FOR WHAT YOU BELIEVE IN ,GET KNOCKED DOWN 7 TIMES STAND BACK UP 8,SHOW EVERYONE THAT YOU HAVE A REASON TO STAY AND THAT YOU DON'T WANT TO LIVE IN FEAR.
love? Really? What is this? Does It Exsist? Where Do I find It?
This word to begin with firstly gets thrown around too much if you have to ask me.ALL OF THEE ABOVE ARE QUESTIONS THAT WE HAVE ASKED.
The truth being that the answer to the above differs for each person,I mean speaking of the perfect example here I am writting this blog yet I have my doubts about Love believe it or not I do and for me personally I think this is pretty normal for anyone,people in this world do and say things which cloud our judgement a lot of the times.
same note people base how they feel and what to look for based on that movie for I mean let's be honest we watch a romantic movie and everyone walks out the movie house feeling like they just witnessed how a PERFECT relationship should be and im not here to tell you that those type of relationships don't exsist because they probably do but with that being said on the example,I'm guility of ths so don't worry or stress if you are too,all we need to do is just believe in OUR hearts and follow what it says instead of letting our brain do OUR HEARTS WORK. We strong and stable enough to persevere in our own bliefs andwith that being said I'm sure "LOVE" will be found im not claiming to be the love doctor either but from past experiences that have now influenced my current one's I can tell you that I know what the exact of opposite of love is and that's hatetred it's something that is capabale of tearing you up inside and you may feel like it's a storm that you can weather but it proves you wrong,having hatetred towards someone takes a lot more effort than to love someone,but like I said things happen that cloud our judgement and alhough it's difficult to see at times being positive can guide you through this,it's all about vulnerability,being open and not being afraid to hurt.
"iF there's no pain there's no game"
Being loved by someone gives you the courage ,true love never dies but instead gets stronger with time.All im saying is appreciate those who ARE here for you ,those who tell you that LOVE YOU,THE ONE'S THAT take the time to prove andshow it and as far as the ones that dont well move on.
People come and go in life and the reason this is that as each new person enters and by the time they leave there's a life lesson that needs to be acknoweledged AND MAYBE WHEN WE DO ACKNOWELEDGE MAYBE THINGS WILL HAPPEN UNEXPECTED
So I haven't posted in a good solid 4-6 months and I have some good news for a change I'll be embarking on my new travels to Europe on the 26th of June which is in less than 2 weeks time from now,yet im still uncertain on weather im excited,anxious,or mellow,or all three?
In my previous blogs You may have recalled me speaking about Lara Johnstone well I have news on her too.Who would say that these last couple of months would be my most difficult yet most anticipated?
Where do I begin...
LARA JOHNSTONE
Okay So as far as this beautiful girl is concerned we have had countless conversations on how "we" were going to get her to Australia. I know you may be thinking why Australia,so truth be told Lara happened to meet this chap Daniel which well to cut a long story short they now dating except he lives millions of miles away and I bet you've guessed just where he might live,AND WELL if you werne't thinking of Australia then.........IT'S BLOODY AUSTRALIA MATE!
Every day and just about night we would speak trying to figure and brainstorm idea's of how we were going to get her there,don't get smart and say via air transportation as that would be the most obvious thing to say it was rather a matter of how we were going to come up with something finacially as being 18 and going overseas blowing off your own steam is definitely no breeze in the park.
Some of which those conversations let me tell you wasn't easy having ,they got emotional at times and when you on the other end knowing how badly someone hurts it's a feeling that no words can describe,hopelessness fills your heart and mind and no matter how hard you try you know your efforts still bypass theothe person. La and Myself encountered this I think more than once and it got her down often and me down sometimes both at the same time things were exchanged that we didnt mean just in the heat of the moment things exploded from holding them in for so long.
After endless months of going up and down you know the result she landed at?
SHE'S GOING TO AUSTRALIA!!! =)
She's going due to her perseverance in the most unpleasant of situations,her determination,her willingness to put it all on the line no matter the cost she made her self vulnerable but as they say if things were easy then everybody would be doing it ,she knew mentally it was going to be difficult but despite of everything we've been through im excited to tell you that we will both be in a different part of the world at the same time how cool right?
That's what I thought too,she deserves this and if you happen to be one of those people that dont believe in long distance relationships then Lara & Daniel are a prime example that they sure do with just a little extra effort and determination no matter the mountains you have to face,weather you stand alone,or with a million others YOU FACE THOSE MOUNTAINS and you will overcome them if you just believe like she DID!
My Travels Begin On the 26th of June 2013
Moving on ,I leave for Europe in 11 days from today. If you don't know me there's quite a bit you need to know .Starting that I have a very strong personality which has it pro's & Con's just like everything else in life there has to be a balance in everything and I'd like to think no different than that of my personality,I may come across as egotistic but if you just take the time to get to know me you'll see that you have percieved me very incorrectly.I WILL ALWAYS STAND MY GROUND FIRM and if im in the wrong I have no shame in admitting that I am just as long others do the same ,Im very adventourous and I enjoy trying new things out and TRAVELLING is definitely one of them.
As I embark on this journey I will be visiting a few countires such as Germany,Netherlands,Spain,Italy,France.Travelling in my opinion opens one's eyes and mind as well as persepctive as it makes you aware of all the different diversities that are out there that not many get to experince or see so im definitely gracious and thankfu FOR this experinence in this part of my life cycle.
Along with all this you may remember that my very first blog was about family I have some news on that too. The bad news however is not that I have resolved problems with my dad but rather that I have connected with other family whom I've always got along with her name happens to BE Ivone Delgado and boy oh boy is this freaking bundle of joy a POWER HOUSE! She's yeah makesme speechless im 17 turning 18 next month and just to give you an idea shes a soccer mom with 3 beautiful daughters. Honestly whenever I just think of her that same significant moment plays in my head knowing that shes here for me no matter what,that someone can atleast understand me for who I am someone who can comprimise,someone who is able to hold me up when they have a family of their own this shows true character and just yestersay I happened to tell her thatI appreciate her and it's not often that I tell people that out of eeryone I know i've maybe told two pwoplw that and shes one of them and so as i Embark on this journey it's her and Lara thati'll miss most.
